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October 4, 2016 at 7:12 am #14097Participant
Whew, powerful day. In doing the task about reviewing past attempts at drinking my heart broke reading journal entries from those times & seeing how much I wanted it & how much I was struggling. I had gone 39 days at one point in time, but of course when I drank again the journal entries stopped.
I know, though, that I went back to drinking in social situations and it became crystal clear to me that it is because I have this old fear of being friendless and alone. There is so much pain around this that needs to be healed. I am so thankful for these daily tasks to keep me on focus.
October 4, 2016 at 9:34 am #14099Participant
You are doing really good and dont beat yourself up about past attempts to quit that did not last. We have all relapsed several times in the past but I am confident (for myself) that this is the solution. 30DSS This internal work is what I needed to get sober and stay sober. I have the tools now to handle any temptations in the future.
And its not like I am renouncing social interactions and becoming a Priest. I can still socialize and have plenty of friends. In fact I now have the opportunity to interact with even BETTER friends than the underachievers I was hanging out with in the past that spent the whole night drinking and complaining.
Wehn he get sober and things in our life start getting better and clearer we will attract a higher quality of friendship with better people (especially our romantic relationships)
I am really looking forward to a whole new life and to realizing my full potential instead of living a life of mediocrity and tied down by the heavy chains of addiction
Dont despair, so many great things are in store for you if you just stay brave and keep your quit.
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