Lapsing

[christine12108 Participant]

I have lapsed despite best intentions. I am carrying on with Day 15 and the Vision Board. I have had time to reflect on why I lapsed and very simply I did not follow on the 100% rule. I let the voice in and I gave it space to grow. I have started again and will re-boot the 30 days after these next two weeks. But what I want most is not to have to start the Day 1 again. I have done that too many times. I need to remain committed and to keep my resolve up; because without change I will be in exactly this same place in 1 month/6months time etc.

In all honesty I didn’t want to own up to a relapse but having read some earlier comments its what you do having relapsed that is as important.

So one day at a time. When I keep to this programme and invest in myself I succeed.

So for all of you out there keep going and when the addiction voice kicks in just kick it right back out and move forward!! Keep to that 100% goal its gold dust!

[sinaqueena Participant]

Hi @christine12108 .I remember you posting a month ago about playing your music!
If you would like more support here, go to “Site Wide Activity “.
There is a lively and inspirational thread started by Dan. It is so helpful to have support!
Let me know if you are able to find the Thread!
And don’t go back to Day 1!
Onward! Sina

[stacyg16 Participant]

Great post, Christine.

Yep, it is very disheartening having to start back at Day 1 yet again. I can’t remember if it was in this book or if I read it somewhere else, that counting days is very much an AA thing – and not something we necessarily have to do. I am always excited to wake up knowing I didn’t drink the night before. That really makes me happy! And I am trying to make how many days it has actually been, less important.

[christine12108 Participant]

Thank you stacyg16 – that is a good advice; it is always wonderful to wake up knowing that, “Yes, I didn’t drink yesterday”. I will gather my resolve and move forward on this. Thank you and Sinaqueena for your kind words and support.

Christine

[christine12108 Participant]

Thank you Sinaqueena

I like your comment very much about Onwards. I will go now to the Thread you suggested. Everything I read here is inspirational and yes I shall start playing the music again. Isn’t there a line in some musical “pick yourself up, brush yourself down and start over again.” I have used that a few times recently.
Best wishes
Christine

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