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September 9, 2019 at 8:07 pm #122539Participant
Yup. That was me at 21. I always liked to drink and never had any problem with drinking. Then I got married and we had a few good years, but then he was a man who, pretty much, ignored me. And if he was wasn’t ignoring me, he was belittling me. I was married, and lonely. That’s when I started to drink heavier…I was about 45 then.
You see, it was my home entertainment system. I used to say that and then laugh. He drank heavy too…the rest is history, divorce; an ugly divorce. That’s after I took all the bs for 15 years, too afraid to leave. Until my eye seemed to connect with his fist. Alcohol did play a part then. Then I left with one suitcase and my home entertainment system. I lost ALOT!
It has taken me all of these 9 years of being single to forgive him. And I only have a twinge now and again concerning my inheritance which he blew through which has left me financially strapped for all of these years. The rest I have forgiven. And I even have to say that I learned some very important lessons for all of this. And for all of this, I must forgive myself, because I did the best that I could and I know that it takes two to tango.
So, I have been living with my cat, my dog and my home entertainment system. I would have 3-4 drinks every night and occasionally more. It was more of a habit than anything…right?
One day about a month ago, I woke up with a black eye and had no idea how I got it. I must have fallen, but I have no memory of it. And that was my rock bottom. It seemed that my home entertainment system was no longer entertaining.
I am so happy that I have found this book. I’m on Day 5 of sobriety, the first day of the rest of my life. I am not struggling too very much, but I am committed and on my guard. I am very grateful and I have forgiven myself. Now I just need to love myself a bit more.
October 20, 2019 at 8:58 am #122688Participant
Thank you for sharing that. We all fall into situations and seem to make them our norm. That fact that you left shows how powerful you are. You should be very proud of yourself and the fact you have now started this book shows you are moving in a positive direction. I have been struggling for a long time and this book helps if you keep it a part of you daily. Good luck and be proud of yourself.
October 21, 2019 at 9:41 am #122693
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